Sunday, October 24, 2010

Sensitive Sunday

I'm going to keep today's post short, sort of, but in honor of the Lords day, I think I'll also be super honest.

I am sensitive.  Lately, overly sensitive it seems.

I'm not posting this for sympathy/pity comments, like the person who says oh, I'm so fat or so ugly just to hear people say, oh, no, you are sooo beautiful!

I'm posting it because, since we are getting to know each other, I think you should know this about me.  Maybe it stems from a lack of self confidence but it is just as likely to be my current situation: at home, alone, with an infant, and a husband that is deployed.  Who knows really, and who cares why I am.  I just am. 

I analyze and overanalyze everything these days.  Who called.  Who didn't call.  Who said something nice.  Who said something mean.  Who didn't say anything at all.  You get the picture. 

I feel sad for me sometimes.  Sometimes sad for my baby girl - she deserves to see her handsome Daddy everyday after all.  And lots of times, I feel bad for other babies.  I feel bad for babies born to mean, uncaring, or simply irresponsible parents.  I feel bad for babies born in poverty, in drugs, in war.  Then after I feel bad for the babies I feel bad for the kids.  Then after I feel bad for the kids I feel bad for the adults (well, some of them) because, after all, adults used to be babies too and not everyone chose their situation.  And not everyone could get out of it if they tried.

What do you feel sad about?  Are you sensitive?  What tugs at your heartstrings most?

18 comments:

Rachel Cotterill said...

I do get worked up about things, but sometimes I make a conscious effort to keep a kind of mental distance, otherwise I'd be stressed out all the time! I guess it's natural to think about these kinds of things more when you have a baby, too :)

Thanks for visiting from SITS, it's great to meet you!

TheBabyMammaChronicles said...

And wonderful to meet you too! Thanks for coming by!

Elizabeth-Flourish in Progress said...

You said it, Mamma. Before I had Cal, I recognized the plight of disadvantaged children and felt compassion for them. Now, as a mom, it's almost unbearable. I get so angry when any child is mistreated. I know that when a child is mistreated, it really sets them up for failure later on in life and a higher likelihood that the child will mistreat and be violent as well.

Sometimes, when I am at the store, I see parents buying alcohol and cigarettes and gossip magazines, but when the child wants something, a color book perhaps, the parents get extremely upset with the child and call them demanding or greedy. Ummm....hello? I actually sneered at a woman last week when she did this...and she saw me.

Thanks for sharing and being so honest, always. I know that your family has been calling and your friends have been supportive, but is there anything us blogging moms can do??

Ameena said...

I am so super sensitive to so many things...these days it's the mean girls at my daughter's school that make me feel sad. I wonder, is my kid going to have to face the meanness that I did? Kids can be vicious and I am so scared!

I'm so sorry you are having a rough day. I hope tomorrow is a better one for you!

The Blue Zoo said...

Its ok to be sensitive! I think babies make us more sensitive than normal.

Debbie said...

It depends on the situation. Some things make me much more sensitive than others. I think you need to give yourself a break - we are all like that.

TheBabyMammaChronicles said...

Thanks ladies, today has definitely been better and less sensitive. Elizabeth, just being you and stopping by is so wonderful and I can't thank you enough for that!

pamelahutchins said...

Oh, I wouldn't apologize for being sensitive. You not only have a lot on your plate, but it is so normal as a young mom with a young child to have your heart strings be continuously tugged by the plights of others. You sound like a really wonderful person. Who I found on SITS!

TheBabyMammaChronicles said...

Thanks Pamela! Just came back from checking out your blog! It and you are both fabulous!

Paula {Simply Sandwich} said...

I think we are all in the same boat; sensitive because of our nurturing character. It is okay to be that way - it means you are a loving and compassionate soul. BTW - LOVE your new blog design!

TheBabyMammaChronicles said...

Thanks Paula, on both accounts! Hugs to you!

Danielle Stewart said...

I think I would have to say that I feel sorry for my son. He is beautiful, smart and funny and you he is only three but his dad is 100% absent. Yes we get a check every month but the money doesn't mean anything if your father won't acknowledge your presence. I know that he doesn't understand it now but I feel sorry for him because one day he will understand it.

TheBabyMammaChronicles said...

Danielle, I'm so sorry to hear that. Your son's father has no idea what he's missing out on.

BLOGitse said...

Thanks for your visit!
Sad? Sad moments but being sad longer doesn't help anybody.
I'm sensitive but I also try to think.
Emotional trap (when feelings are leading your life) is not for me. I could not survive like that. I would cry my eyes out of my head.
I try to be rational...But when I feel weak I have a shoulder to cry on. I'm very lucky!
Life is good! (even if we have problems right now - but we have a home/food/enough money - that's a lot!)

TheBabyMammaChronicles said...

That's true! Life is always good - even when it's not. Thanks for dropping by!

Mommy Needs a Vacation said...

It is okay to be sensitive!!! I am like that sometimes too. I do have a hard edge to me though. I love your blog design- so cute! And thanks for having me on your blogroll! xoxo

TheBabyMammaChronicles said...

No thank you for visiting and commenting! I always enjoy reading your blog so just wanted to share the love.

Anastasia said...

I would call this over sensitive. It's being a mom, especially a new mom. I cry about everything, I keep myself awake at night being upset over commercials about babies who need homes. I worry constantly that I'm not doing enough fro my girls. Massive mom guilt.

 
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