Friday, December 3, 2010

Nursing School

First, I apologize for not reading and commenting on many blogs the last two days, unfortunately, the next two days might not be much better.  Busy, busy!  But I do promise to do my best to catch up.

I registered for my classes today.  Overall, it went well.  However, I did have a lot of mixed emotions.  Here are just a few of the thoughts that circled through my head:

"Is it selfish of me to go back to school?"
"How many firsts am I going to miss?"
"Will Kaia resent or hate me later for this decision?"
"I wonder how Kaia's doing without me?  I miss my baby."
"I can't believe I'm really going to be starting school in January?!  I've wanted this for years now!"
"It'll be nice to meet some new people."
"I wonder how Kaia's doing without me?   I miss my baby."
"I'm going to be out of place.  Most of my classmates are going to be 20-21yrs old, unmarrired, with no children.  I'm going to be the "old" lady in class."
"I like the small campus feel.  Everyone seems pretty nice."
"I think that 17 yr old working in the library was just a bit taken aback when I said I was going to be a new student."
"Todd and I need this.  We need at least one guranteed job between the two of us."
"I wonder how Kaia's doing without me?  I miss my baby."
"Was that my phone ringing?!  Is it Nanny?!  Is something wrong?!"  (It was ringing, it wasn't her, and nothing was wrong)
"How many hours have I been gone now?"
"I'm looking forward to clinicals."
"I really can see myself as a nurse."
"This schedule is confusing as hell."
"This building's not even listed on the map.  I'm supposed to go where?"

But, that's more than enough; you get the picture.  Kaia and Nanny did very well together today.  And, yes, I did check the background check and references.  Clean record, glowing reports.  Seems like I got pretty lucky she's willing to work for me.

I am back to playing Army this weekend.  Tomorrow I take my physical fitness test, the first since labor.  It's not going to be pretty folks.

Todays workout:  33 push-ups, 50 sit-ups, 23 minutes on the elliptical.



Anastasia said...

When I went to school I told one of the young'uns I was 23 and she said "You don't look that old."

That old! 23 is not a "that old" kind of age. Sheesh.

Devan @ Accustomed Chaos said...

Good for you for going back to school!! Its not selfish - it is good and important to look after your needs too :)

Rock it girl!!

Alex said...

Yay!!! Congrats and your daughter is going to be so proud of you!!!

PS. Shes going to be fine :)

Kat said...

Do not let those thoughts get you down - when Kaia is older, she is going to be SO proud of you for taking this step, because it says so much about the woman and mother you are for your family.

Good luck with your fitness test, lady! I'll be thinking of you!

TheBabyMammaChronicles said...

Oh my goodness, if they think 23 is old I'm really in trouble! Ha!

Thanks Devan! I hope you're right.

Alex, thank you. I'm hoping she enjoys a little more socialization like your sweet little one.

Kat, you're too kind! Thank you so much on both accounts.

The Bonjour Four said...

Yay for nursing school! did you know im a nurse? I work in the newborn nursery. :) only part time but i do love it when im up there. Couldn't ask for a better job. good for you for going to school. it will be good for you! and your sweet baby will be just fine. Although I do understand each and everyone of those worries. I would probably think the same things. Keep us updated!

Elizabeth-Flourish in Progress said...

lol....i find it's always a funny experience to walk about a school campus now. sometimes. the "kids" ask for directions because they think i am a school employee or teacher. =)

i think it's so wonderful and brave that you are going back to school. Kaia will certainly have a role model in you. She will see with her own eyes that if she has a dream, it is possible to make it come true and that anything is possible as long as you work hard and put in the effort.

She's gonna be so, so proud of her mama.

TheBabyMammaChronicles said...

Libby, I didn't know! That's awesome! I either want to work pediatrics or possibly labor & delivery like you. Good to know I can ask you for tips and advice :)

Elizabeth, thank you, you always know just what to say to make me feel better or more confident!

OurLittleBlessingS said...

All of those thoguhts/emotions are totally understandable!!!! Im excited for you to dive into so ething you enjoy! Itll def make you a better mommy amd you will appreciate everything so much more!;)

Just Another Mom of 2 said...

I completely understand these feelings, it's natural for you to be concerned when some of your attention is taken away. I get like that with working from home, but you know what? Education is so important, and you're setting a great example!! Good for your!

Pamela Hutchins said...

I've experienced those waffling doubts for 15 years. They've never stopped. But, I also feel like my kids never resented me, and I missed VERY few first. And I am paying for their college :)

Dianna@KennedyAdventures said...

What a huge accomplishment!!!

As a nurse for almost 20 years (oh my!), I can tell you that you won't regret this. Nursing is flexible, and in my experience, you can work as little or as much as you want.

I went to nursing school right out of college, but had LOADS of folks in my class that were moms going back to school. I loved it -- it really gave us perspective on
'real life' .... we complained because we didn't have enough time to party, yet these women were sacrificing time with their families, balancing work and school, all with grace and style.

PLEASE keep us posted when time allows. I'm looking forward to hearing from you!

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